This memoir
style piece has all the makings of a well-crafted short story. And I’m sure that’s what he intended,
originally. Roth fell somewhere between
mine and my mother’s generation. He went
through this stuff as a fearless teenager; but his mother could remember back
through two world wars. The effects of
polio and the fear surrounding it are almost forgotten now, except for people
seventy and above, like his and my age group.
I’ve heard the stories of the war time fear all my life from my
mother.
Roth does a
good job of capturing the parental fears, but also blends in a stronger,
secondary human foible: pride.
PRIDE.
It’s hubris [ ὕβρις ] in Greek.
It goeth before a fall –“ Pride goeth before destruction, and
an haughty spirit before a fall.”
Proverbs
16:18
The seventh, and worst, deadly sin. Classic.
Roth develops a character that is tainted with
the humiliation of being rejected by his male peers as a warrior symbol. So the response of his male lead character is
to make himself even more perfect in every other physical attribute -- an icon
-- an idol of the other boys around him. This is gray area -- Does he become
obsessive? -- even arrogant about his abilities -- an arbiter of perfection in
others -- the perfect dive -- the perfect javelin throw -- the perfect body of
muscles -- doesn't an arbiter of these things have tendencies to arrogance.?
It's that subtle over-reach that turns this into
hubris. Maybe it's just a cultural thing, some sort of Greek or Catholic or Jewish
thing – a Roman or an Ohioan White, Anglo-Saxon Protestant would never worry
about the problem of being an arbiter of other people's perfection. Mitt Romney
is a case in point -- he thought there was nothing wrong with saying that
England and America had a "special bond", because of their white,
Anglo-Saxon heritage: Long live the king.
The Bucky character, to his eventual end, was
plagued by this all being some sort of hideous, monstrous test. He had been
destined for greatness, but denied all forms of pleasure here on Earth. God
speaks to him. God gives him seven challenges.
My main point is that he should have kept it to 10-15,000 words.
Then we get
the Philip Roth/Woody Allen classically conflicted character, making a 36-hour
decision, which he spends the rest of his long, tormented life regretting. Not like Frankie S.,
“Regrets I've had a few But then again too few to mention I did what I had to do And saw it through without exemption.”
O.K., so we’ve learned a little bit about Polio, but mostly
anecdotal, like Mama told us.
We’ve been told again and again how fear causes panic. –
“There is nothing to Fear, but Fear itself.!!”
And we’ve watched a man, not unlike Oedipus, deconstruct in all
aspects of his life, over what: indecision?, lack of commitment?, faith?, bad
genetics?, bad hygiene?.
I would give “Nemesis” a 5 out of 10 points. After all, it is a Philip Roth book –
hopefully his last.
I’ve included my own little memoir of Polio on the next page.
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My
family moved from Detroit (Industrial core of the WW-II effort) to San Jose in
1948. My tenth year and I was coming
into the fifth grade. I was good friends
with two fellows, Tremaine Adrian (L) and Skip Smith (R). Our common interest was secondarily
mathematics, but mainly our youthful and beautiful mathematics teacher, Mrs.
Pat Bergna. We all three had a crush on
her. She had announced her engagement to
be married before classes ended that year, 1949. I don't remember her maiden name, because she
married the soon-to-be 30-year career District Attorney for San Jose.
Undaunted, we
volunteered to mow her lawn all summer in exchange for math lessons. I'm sure she realized that we all had this
crush on her. We dutifully arrived at
her little house every Saturday morning on our bicycles and spent a few hours
trimming the yard so that it looked like it had been to the barber shop. She kept her part of the bargain and when we
were done, she would serve us lunch and give us an algebra lesson. Life moved on in the sixth grade and we put
our efforts into Boy Scouts rather than Mrs. Bergna that year.
The next
year was when, first time in my life, I thought about myself as a unique
individual who would live and die. Sort
of like Descartes, "I think, therefore I am." I had this thought while walking home from an
evening Boy Scout Troop meeting at the school.
These days you wouldn't let a twelve year old kid walk the streets in
the dark. In my English class, for a
book review, I choose "Of Time and the River" by Thomas Wolfe. [No, not the current author, this one died in
1938.] My teacher was astounded and
unbelieving, since it was almost 900 pages and weighty writing like Faulkner's
stories about the South.
In
the summer, between sixth and seventh grades, the word came to my mother, who
was good friends with Tremaine's mother that he had been diagnosed with Polio
and was in an Iron Lung. I was kept away
from all that early trauma. The mothers
must have shared their agony. I know my
mother had a great fear of Polio, stemming back to our early days {1944} in
Detroit. I started to visit Tremaine
once a week after school. I was not
forced, nor even encouraged to do this.
I had to take a bus over to what is now the Valley Medical Center on
Bascom and Moorpark and back again. It
took a whole afternoon. I didn't know,
or comprehend, at the time what the prognosis was.
My
visits dwindled to once every two weeks during the eighth grade and once a
month during the ninth grade, by then I'd figured out that there was no hope
and it would be over soon. Each year I
would twist the arms of various singing groups at Christmas time to come with
me to the hospital. I love to sing
Christmas Carols, although I have no real voice for it. But that was something I could do and it
elated everybody for a while. It's
strange how some of these sorts of things stick with us. I still join in with Christmas groups that
will have me, shouting out, "God Rest ye Merry Gentlemen." A favorite time of life was when my good
friend Donna Roberts used to have annual Christmas parties in Bernal Heights
and drag out the sheet music for all to join in and sing carols. I joined a hospital choir group when I
returned to Tucson for graduate studies.
Tremaine
died during the spring term of the ninth grade.
We had slowly lost an oral connection for speaking about current
events. This was understandable with all
that goes on in a young life between twelve and fifteen. We still talked about feelings, wishes (his
to get out of that lung), and the future (me - cars, him - girls). I know that at the end, he understood that he
wasn't going to live much longer, but how does a 15-year-old relate to
that? I'm sure there were other deaths
around me during the preceding 15 years, but this was the first that affected
me so personally.